Before being in recovery, I felt like I had no personality. My three sisters have many passions - poetry, writing, acting, singing - and I didn't have any. I thought that if I wasn't the best at something, I couldn't do it. But I learned that creating something is infinitely more important than what it is that I create. Just because I can't draw a tree that looks like a photograph of a tree, doesn't mean I can't be an artist. And more importantly, it doesn't mean that I can't get something out of creating art.
The painting I'm working on is a reflection of cyclothymia -- rapid cycling bipolar. It's not done, and it's not perfect, but it doesn't matter to me right now. The important thing to me is how it feels to paint it.